I wish i could go away.

I think about my life everyday! and there is nothing im proud of. i never did right by anyone, i lied, and i regret my decisions. I am so incrediably sorry about what i said. to everyone. i should never have spoke. never said anything. been silent. and ignored. i was ignored. i should have killed myself, when i was told too, when i had the chance. i just want to die. im worthless. i know that. i was told. bullied. hurt. i bullied myself. i deserve it. im pathetic. worthless. stupid. ugly. fat. a liar. i bad friend. a horrible duaghter. im just disgusting. disgusting. a pig. I just want to die I think tonight's the night

a cutters lullaby.

Hush a bye baby your almost dead.... you have no pulse, your pillows read.

these words comfort me, tonight, and tomorrow night. my head is looping, im driving myself crazy.